Wednesday, June 25, 2008

fasting . . . and selah

A group of AGCI folks have joined together to fast for those of us with adoptions hanging in limbo. (Some of the people who we are praying for are me, Sharon, the 3rd AGCI family going through this delay, a gal named Robin, and many others who are adopting from Guatemala and their children are stuck in PGN). This is a prayer fast, and it starts tonight (Wed) at 8 pm PST and will go until the same time tomorrow. I can't tell you how much this has encouraged me, that people who I only know through bloggerville and Yahoo list serves have voluntarily set aside a day to fast for our adoption.

There is a specific reason to pray, because it is a minute possibility we might be able to squeeze through a loophole (maybe), but it will honestly take a miracle.

I've never fasted before, have you? I am glad to be doing SOMETHING, rather than continuing to sit here. But I have to be honest that I feel completely exhausted in my prayers. I cannot beg God anymore than I already have. I have no new way to phrase my feelings, to present them to God, no new insights into why or how or when. I do NOT feel far from God right now. What I feel is: tired.

I need some sort of [selah]. i don't know what it would look like, or if, in limbo, it is even possible to attain. but perhaps this fast will help.

10 comments:

Kymber and John said...

That is a great idea!! I can't even imagine how tired you must be in every way. I am continuing to pray that God will raise up those around you to pray 24 hours a day so that you can rest. This was something I learned about during chemo - sometimes we get so tired and exhausted in our lives, we have no more prayers to pray...we have to rest and allow others to fight for us. Something I do when I fast is ask the Lord what specific things he would have me give up. I cannot go without food so this works well for me. It may be TV, sugar, alcohol...whatever the Lord lays on your heart. You are on my heart, and my moms!!

AllyZabba said...

I will be praying for you. God can do miracles.

C & R said...

I can not even imagine how tired you are but know when you are weak He is Strong!! Also I hate to sing a song but " Lean on me when your not strong and I will be your friend I will help carry on...." so take this time to lean on your friends, family and Agci/blog family...and we will use our strength to pray!! Please knoe there are many people praying for you guys(Sharon and other families) and so much support!!!

kru clan said...

I'll be praying that the loophole becomes a reality. love you guys.

Kelly said...

I'm specifically praying that God will grant the man whose decision it is an abnormal about of free time so that he can't help but decide to spend time on your case. I'm also praying that his heart will open and he'll put himself in your position and really think about how this is the BEST thing for little D...to be in your home NOW.

Brian and Autumn said...

We are praying for you guys and your case today!
Autumn

C & R said...

this is my favorite song!!!I thought the words may help!!
"If You Want Me To"
Ginny Owens




The pathway is broken And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley If You want me to

Chorus: Cause I'm not who I was When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire If You want me to




It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy You only said I'd never go alone
So When the whole world turns against me And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help I'll remember the suffering
Your love put You through And I will go through the valley If You want me to




When I cross over Jordan, I'm gonna sing, gonna shout
I'm gonna look into Your eyes and see You never let me down
So take me on the pathway that will lead me home to You
And I will walk through the valley If You want me to

Yes, I will walk through the valley If You want me to

jen said...

My heart is broken for you. Psalm 147:3 says, "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up thier wounds." I've had to write that one on my heart for many times and many reasons. I'm praying for you and your family.

The Gresham Clan said...

Know I am continuing to pray for you! I can't even begin to imagine the frustration, pain, tiring wait. Know that you are being covered in prayer along w/ your family and your precious boy! Thank you for sharing and being willing to reach out - that's what God wants us to do and you're doing that! Blessings to you K!

Kristin

annieglan said...

Hello,

I found your blog from another adoption blog I read. I was wondering if you could email me when you get a chance? We are unable to start the adoption process until March, but I would love to hear your story. I am happy to see that Daniel finally made it home.

Annie
annieglan@yahoo.com