Sitting here trying to figure out what to write . . .
I did fast last Thursday, along with others from our agency. In all honesty, it was not that difficult for me, except the last 2 hours when I was dizzy. I haven't had a great appetite anyway. I didn't receive any lightening bolt from the Lord, but that's ok, because I know God doesn't always respond to us quickly, and I know that just because I didn't see an immediate response from Him doesn't mean He isn't working. I am planning to fast again this Thursday.
I took a little hiatus and stayed at a friend's house for a few days last week. i am . . . grieving . . i guess. another travel group was announced and i am SOO excited for my neighbor and friend Carrie, who is headed off in July to meet her son. And Anissa and Adanise too. Really, I am truly happy for you all.
On a different note, my hubby signed a huge contract this week, and I'm REALLY proud of him. He's been working on THIS for a long time.
Also, my nuggets are delightful, and I've had some great breakthroughs with both of them this week. We finished our "teamwork chart" where either of them can earn a sticker on a joint chart for being a good helper/teammember to the other. The reward: YOGURTLAND. :) yum.
Been reading an excellent book: Siblings without Rivalry. Stick around for the book review next post. I think its really equipped me in new ways.
Z has been reading for a while now, but has not been too interested in books, just words/phrases, and prefers me reading to him. So, as motivation, I found a place to download certificates, and I told him that we'd take a trip to Legoland once he's earned 5 certificates (he needs to read a book 30+ pages to get a certificate). He's already earned one, and is very eager to keep going!
R is delightful, and I was just thinking today that she hasn't been sick in SOOO long. She really had so many ear infections as a little nug, and she's been hospitalized 3 times in her 3 years of life for high fevers, and these days she is healthy and happy and dancing and singing.
The kids wake up in the mornings and play together for a good hour before melting, so much so that C and I slept in on Sat till 9:30!!
I try to fixate on all these things, and not dwell on what my heart misses.
10 comments:
I am amazed at how busy you are with your family. Just when I was reminding myself that my boys hadn't been sick in a while either, Sam decided to throw up....all over me! Yuck. Mike took him and I got to clean myself up. Vacation project #2: Stay home with a sick 3 year old. Oh the joys of motherhood.
I've been following your blog for a few months. I love how real you are in your posts. Your honesty is so refreshing. I'm praying for your family and for you to be united with your baby soon. This situation has got to be agonizing. We waited 10 months from referral until the day we met our daughter. I know it sounds so cliche, but once you have your baby in your arms, these hard days will start to fade away. You'll be such an encouragement to others down the line. Hang in there.
Praying for you,
Kristi W.
(werrefamily.blogspot.com)
So glad that God is showing you His goodness in all that you have and that you are able to see it. Hang in there -- we're praying for you guys!
Is 43:1-4 (The Message) But now, God's Message, the God who made you in the first place, Jacob (Karen),
"Don't be afraid, I've redeemed you.
I've called your name. You're mine.
When you're in over your head, I'll be there with you.
When you're in rough waters, you will not go down.
When you're between a rock and a hard place,
it won't be a dead end—
Because I am God, your personal God,
The Holy of Israel, your Savior.
I paid a huge price for you:
all of Egypt, with rich Cush and Seba thrown in!
That's how much you mean to me!
That's how much I love you!
I'd sell off the whole world to get you back,
trade the creation just for you.
Yahoo for C! Thinking about you constantly, friend. Covering your family, near and far, in prayer.
Alexis
I think this what you have to do to get through this. Immerse yourself in the blessings in your life that already exist. Concentrate on those, nuture those and hopefully as time progresses your little D will be in your arms soon.
The wait is very hard at best and when things go wrong, it is even harder. I am so sorry that your adoption has been so slow. Please know that many people are praying and fasting for you and for the other families.
God used the time that I was praying and fasting for you, to speak to my heart about our families future. I bet that He was touching the hearts of others too.
Karen,
stumbled across your blog a few months ago and have been following your story, praying for you -- thank you for your honest updates for all of us. You will get that boy soon .... know that the Lord is near. So fun to find you online -- hang in there.
Bretta (Swanson) Hayes :)
Your nuts sound amazing... so happy R's been healthy and really thriving. I know your heart aches and the unknowns are agonizing. Your strength is awesome and your perseverance will get you through this. Don't allow yourself to worry about what you feel you're missing right now, just look forward to the incredible life you'll have together as a family of 5 very soon! Hang in there and vent/email/whatever ANY time you need! Big hugs!
Oh I hope you don't have to get tubes put in R's ears.
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