
I know, i should be sleeping. but i have been working for about 6 hours today trying to get our videos/photos in order to share with our sunday school class tomorrow. it has been time-consuming, but i know i need to do it, so its good to get it done while my memory is fresh. :) i'm in the process of saving a movie i created to a usb drive and it has another 27 minutes to save, and thus, you have my undivided attention for the next 27 minutes!! :)
Here are my nugs. aren't they scrumptious? :) oh, and yes, Rey does have blue lips--those darned suckers. (ah-hem, i do occasionally give the little people candy.)
things are going fairly well. sleep is still a problem. c and i are tired. d wakes a minimum of twice a night (usually three times). thankfully he doesn't wake the other nugs. he's a great baby. we've started solid foods (here's hopin' that helps the sleep!) and are starting to find a bit of a schedule, so that is good. i like rhythm. i had my first week home alone with all three kids, and i think it went ok--a little at a time, yes!!
i've been overwhelmed at the reception we've received here on Parker. we've received gifts and visits from neighbors--those we know well, those we know kind of. we've only heard congratulations and excitement and acceptance, and its been wonderful.
my friend sarah asked me if i notice people looking at us a lot when we go out. i've been mulling on it, Sarah, (sorry i didn't respond sooner). So, in all truth, no, nobody has said anything rude or insensitive to me yet. And a few times I think i've gotten 'looks.' BUT, I would like to consider its possible they *might* be looking at me because a). my kids are DARLING, b). i am a crazy mother attempting to run errands with three children under 4 years of age, or c). they are just looking. i mean, have you ever had that happen where you see something bizarre, and you look, maybe even do a double take, but in your heart and mind, you aren't *judging* per se, you're just looking?! do you know what i mean?? I found myself doing that the other day--driving down 17th street i see a girl dressed in jeans, a shirt and a hoodie (with the hood on), and i did a second take. i seriously am not casting any sort of judgement about her, but i re-look thinking, "is she REALLY wearing jeans and a sweatshirt in this 89 degree heat?"
i have actually had people out and about who have walked up to me and said how adorable my baby is. 'how old is he?' they ask. 'is this your new baby?' the woman at Vons said. 'oh i love his smile!' i mean, i am hearing many lovely things about my little nug. and in cases where i know people--like at gymnastics--where we've been going every Monday for almost a year--i just offer up to the coaches and moms about D's story. i mean, i do know them, and i know they know i wasn't prego, so i offer up something like, "this is my newest son, D. he's 5 months old and we just recently brought him home from Ethiopia." usually goes ok.
and how do i feel when i'm out with him? in addition to stressed (because when am i out with just D?--i always have the other beautiful short people with me), i feel proud. like the day C and I got engaged and i could swear the whole world knew my beautiful ring was BRAND new and that the entire universe was staring at it, THAT is how i think about D.

i have to say this also--D has fairly light skin for an Ethiopian. I sometimes wonder if we've avoided those questions from strangers at Target on account of this. He could pass as Mexican, or as half black/half white, or possibly as one of my birth children, seeing as Z is pretty stinkin brown after a summer of fun (see photo).
as far as the three kid thing, i'm not gonna lie to you--its HARD. its been a bit overwhelming (today i literally found myself breathing into a brown paper bag i was having trouble getting air). the mess is bothering me. the noise is a bit much. and i'm trying to juggle the unique needs of all the kids, and that has been hard. Z is struggling a little too. he's always been my kid who needs extra attention, and is used to dictating (as the older child), and so its been challenging for him to bend to the schedule of a new addition. i've been purposefully speaking into his life these last few days--trying to reassure him.
And alas, 27 minutes is over!! :) at 12:12 am, i'm off to bed!!