I've been learning a lot these days about waiting.
We receive a barrage of messages that we should take more ownership of our dreams. Ask "What does God want me to do?", believe and then DO it. You don't need all the answers; you don't need to know every detail. What you need is more courage to go after what God has told you He wants you to do.
Leap, they say. Take a risk. You'll never know if you don't try.
And that's all true. But what I'm learning these days is, sometimes waiting can be harder than leaping.
I don't even realize the myriad of ways I'm conditioned to forcing it. Forcing my timing. Forcing my plan. Forcing my vision. Forcing my dream on my terms. But I'm starting to see glimpses.
And so, this is my thought today.
In your impulsiveness, DON'T.
In your neediness, DON'T.
In your insecurity, DON'T.
In your hard day, DON'T.
Sometimes it's actually harder to say: I have no clue. I don't know what I'm waiting for. I'm not sure, yet. I don't know why.
Sometimes it's actually harder to believe and be confident when you feel like you're standing still. To feel certain God is at work when nothing appears to be happening.
Sometimes the waiting is the time when we are really being chiseled. The isometric exercise of freezing right now, believing in the promise He made, and letting HIM do the work.
Waiting is not passive. It's active.
It's a relinquishing. It's a choice to hold up, survey, and wait for command. Deciding not to abandon ship or charge the battle in haste.
It's letting Him lead, when all the fear and frustration wants to take the helm.
It demands faith--that He knows, hears, cares, and gives what's best--for you and for those you love (He loves them more)--and He will bring to pass every single thing He wills in His timing.
It requires conscious effort--every ounce of discipline, especially when you want something so badly.
It's hard, I know. But His promises in His time will not disappoint.
Grace as you wait,